Taking the plunge

I think you know immediately. As soon as your eyes meet… Then everything that happens from then on just proves that you have been right in that first moment. When you suddenly realize that you were incomplete and now you are whole… – Luz

For over my 25 years of existence, one of the greatest things I have learned in life is that nothing is certain. There will always be a point when life will leave us clueless and we end up wondering what we really want. I dunno if you get to experience this feeling, wherein one moment you knew exactly what you want then out of the blue, you just suddenly changed your mind. Or let’s put a less complicated example; like when you are shopping for shoes, you knew when you saw that pair of shoes that it will go well with your new dress. But as you browse along the shoe stands and you get to see your whole options, you begin to doubt the beauty of those shoes you were eyeing just a moment ago.

Why is that?

Honestly, I have no fuckin’ idea.

Like when it comes to your profession. Let’s face it, especially when you are about to enter college, you have no idea what will become of you if you take this course. Most likely, your parents just urged you to take that course because it’s “in demand.” Or you just took it because you liked the sound of the “title” before your name. Some of us changed courses in the middle of the term because they realized it wasn’t for them. While, some of us are lucky enough because they are happy with the career path they are heading into. And really making a career out of it.

And more often than not, your two bestfriends whom you knew all your life, grew from being the best of friends to being one of the best couples who was inseparable and look great together, then suddenly, one or both of them called it off. You couldn’t fathom how on earth they hadn’t worked things out because they’re just perfect for each other. And as much as you try not be affected by it (because obviously you’re not part of the relationship), you coulnd’t help but be shocked to know that they have been miserable for such a long time.

Or when you started looking at this person differently. One moment, that person is a nobody, then after a few glance you wanted to know everything about that person. A lot of complications is at your way but somehow, you simply don’t care. Is it really possible to go from one team to the other and change the game entirely?! And what if you want to take that plunge but sooo damn scared to find out that that person isn’t on the other end to catch you. What would you do? Would you take the plunge anyway and devil may care? I doubt it.. Especially if a lot of people are holding you by the strings, yelling at you “This isn’t how it should work! Listen to what society dictates!” argh, screw them right?

I don’t know if you’re getting what I mean, but it feels so damn great to be able to express my thoughts with you.

KC’s Playlist #9

TITLE : Angels

ARTIST : The XX

ALBUM : Coexist

I couldn’t believe that I’m hearing one of the most beautiful melancholic song ever made in the most inconvenient time. I was about to leave my car to meet my next client (which I was terribly late) when I heard this song playing on the radio. I couldn’t and wouldn’t leave my car! So yeah, I was three times late to my meeting. I waited till the DJ mention the name of the band who made me speechless in so much awe, sitting in my car, parked in the sidewalk along Kapitolyo in a hot, hot afternoon. Yes, it just so happen that the band is called The XX, an English indie pop group who plays very unique sound combining minimalist and electronic with a mixture of soulful guitar patterns and percussion.

The entire album focuses on heartbreak, loneliness and intimacy. “Light reflects from your shadow. It is more than I thought could exist. You move through the room like breathing was easy. If someone believed me… They would be as in love with you as I am. They would be in love, love, love.” It is a declaration of love born through a song, and sharing it to the world how magnificent the feeling is, or not. You move through the room like breathing was easy – these moments when you see that person as if you can’t care about anything at all except that this person would glance your way and sees you. “And everyday I am learning about you; The things that no one else sees. And the end comes too soon.. Like dreaming of angels and leaving without them.” There’s this deep connection that you can’t ignore which is pulling you closer and urging you to get to know that person more. Does it ever happen to you, wherein you put this hard wall around you because you don’t want to entertain someone into your life. Then this person comes along, that no matter how tall and strong your wall is, has managed to break through it.

“And with words unspoken; A silent devotion. I know you know what I mean. And the end is unknown but I think I’m ready as long as you’re with me.” So beautiful, right? For me, really, the best thing about falling in love is falling and taking the plunge. It’s like, knowing that things will never be the same, but you can’t wait to witness these changes because you knew you both are gonna be just fine. Sure it’s not gonna be easy, there are no guarantee that what you have will even last but you simply don’t care. You’re happy ending is unclear, but you knew deep in your heart, that you’ll take the plunge over and over again.

TITLE : Your Love Means Everything

ARTIST : Faultline feat. Chris Martin

ALBUM : Your Love Means Everything

I know people get confused about who really composed this song, whether Faultline or Coldplay, but honestly, who cares?! The song is brilliantly composed plus Chris Martin’s voice really made it top-notch. The beautiful lyrics, plus the calmness of the instruments used and the soothing voice of Chris Martin is just haunting! I love it and I can’t share with you my thoughts about this song

“I slipped away last night took me away from sight and the place I know. All crushed upon my skin this mess I put you in and the punch I threw.” I think the narrator talks about what he’s going through, some burden he wants to get rid off because it’s been weighing him down. So he must have done something or went somewhere to ease the weight. “It was a strange reaction for someone like you to remain on side. And in a chain reaction I was down and calling for a place to hide.” In times like this, sometimes it surprises you how many or few people would stay by your side and guides you through a certain challenge in life. In this case, the narrator is somewhat shocked because no matter how much he pushes the people around him away, still they stayed, cared for him, and offers a shelter for him to hide.

“I saw a broken arm. Machines will all break down in the way I know. Mended and all made clean I saw up on the screen all the stones I throw.” Things get broken, but they can also be fixed. Just like you can always find a solution for any problem; you may not see it, but it’s there. It’s just a matter of looking at things differently and seeing the bright side of it. You know, at the end of the day, the last people standing are the people who are not emotionally and physically tough or anything, hence the people who have a great support system around them, a support always urging him to push forward.

TITLE : We Got The World

ARTIST : Icona Pop

ALBUM : Icona Pop

“They say ‘You’re a freak’ when we’re having fun. Say ‘You must be high’ when we’re spreading love. But we’re just living life and we never stop. We got the world…” Now who wouldn’t fall in love with this weird Swedish DJ duo who never fails to keep you dancing with their electro house and indie pop music influences. Their hit I don’t care, I love it was extremely brutal song but definitely catchy

I wanna feature this song, We Got The World because it’s uplifting! After a long and tiring day from work or school, you just wanna listen to some songs which will make you feel inspired, young and energetic. For me, this single truly delivers a great message to burnt out people and who were always on the shade. “We can live fast, fly young. Everyday we celebrate just like we won. Only you and I, DIY. We found a way to live the dream until we die. Just come into my arms. I will get you love drunk. We’ll be burning bright. Us against the world tonight.” Life is too short to be focusing on the bad vibes around you, instead, you should go out there and celebrate life! There’s no need to wait for extravagant birthdays to honor your existence, everyday you wake up in the morning is a miracle and worth celebrating. Stop worrying about the little things, you know, and just live in the moment. Get love drunk and burn bright, it is us against the world tonight

“Aiming for the stars, Jupiter and Mars. We can ride a rocket and go so far.  Black shades, bright nights. Back to back we’ll do this ’til the end of time. You and I live, don’t learn. Everyday we fire it up and let it burn.” The moment you stopped living, is the moment you start worrying about random stuffs you aint need to. Does that make sense?? hahaha Bottom line is, it’s just life. You don’t have to take it seriously, seriously.

Cheers!

XOXO

KC

 

I Don’t Care. I Love It.

I am no expert when it comes to dealing with a relationship. I’ve been routinely in and out of it and honestly, it’s kinda wearing me out. So, with no success in being with a guy, I wonder how would it feel like having a relationship with the same sex? Don’t get me wrong, I don’t judge. I have friends who belong to that 3rd sex category or whatever categories there are and I love each and every one of them. Despite them sharing with me the dirty details of their sex life! haha

Screwed up Lindsay Lohan is a lesbian. The hooottt Amber Heard is a lesbian before Johnny Depp has transformed her into straight. The cute and successful couple Ellen Denegeres and Portia de Rossi is obviously inlove and even tied the knot. Even the pinay pop sensation Charice Pempengco has embraced her true sexuality. They seemed to look and feel great about their choice of relationship, so straight women like myself seldom asks this question: what’s really up with lesbian relationship that some straight girls find it interesting that they decided to convert, or how does a veteran lesbian managed to stay with her lady-love for a long term, mostly minimum of 3 to 4 years?

I mean, come to think of it, a lot of marriages nowadays has either ended up with divorce or annulments, yet there is only a small percentage of lesbian couple who breaks up. Correct my facts if I’m wrong but don’t you think it’s kinda odd and amazing at the same time?

I’ve never been in love with a girl, or have imagined myself sharing a very intimate moment with a girl. One thing I remember though, when I was growing up, I think I was around 11 or 12 years old, I met new friends whom I never realized that they are classified lesbians. They invited me to their group and I willingly joined them; Hey! I got new friends! Sincerely, that was all I thought back then. They are good friends and up to now, they still are. Being a daddy’s girl, he immediately noticed the changes in the way I look, dress up, move or even talk. So yeah, he was alarmed because his baby is turning into a lesbian hehehe. My dad is not big with words, we never talked about this kind of stuff so what he did was, he took me out for shopping and bought me all the trendy dresses I like and pretty shoes! HAHAHA So I’m not surprised that I turned out to be soo kikay

When I went to college, I got into an exclusive school for girls where I met my lovely and cool girlfriends whom I’m still friends with up to now. Coming from a co-ed school since Primary, I was kinda taken by surprise to witness a real girl-to-girl relationship before my own eyes! I’ll be honest, I was kinda weirded out. It’s hard to get acquainted that easily to this kind of society when you’re not really familiar with it. It took me a while to adjust, but then there’s always a first time for everything right? These people who I thought were weird because of their relationship preference has become my best friends for life and I treasure them dearly. Don’t mess with them or you mess with me, I always say

I’ve seen them fell in and out of love and watch them change from one partner to the other, fought and made up, fooled around and changed for the better, I’ve even witnessed them getting married! (Yes people, gay and lesbian marriage is also a trend here in the country!) Their relationship is not at all different from the normal/usual ones. Based on my observations, here are the highlights of lesbian-dating you would probably want to consider if you attempts to be in one; Expect a whirlwind kinda love. In a man-woman relationship, the hormones of the girl is unbelievable, so imagine those hormones, crabbiness, menstrual cycle and mood swings times two?! You are really in for a treat! Haha Women are extra emotional so expect to tear up even with the slightest thing, I dunno, maybe like when your partner forgets to buy you a gift for your 100th day aside from the monthly anniversary! You find a whole new level of CRYING. You cry when she cries, just because she tears up from a movie about a dog named Hachiko. Or you would cry together whenever you’ll have a big talk about how this relationship will go 10years from now, and keep on pushing away the reality that this is wrong then simply forgets that problem when she starts caressing you! You cry with the simple fact that she understands you without saying anything at all, or you cry because she can’t understand you after dating for almost half a year. Or you cry because you two have a crush on the same girl and you tease them together then suddenly you’ll get jealous because she really seems to like her!

Expect to change your clothing size anytime soon. Because you’re too comfortable and happy with her that you’ll ignore counting the calories and treat every single day as cheat day. You won’t mind, you’re in love. Besides, when insecurities strike, she knows exactly how to handle it. Unlike guys, she knows how to answer the questions such as “Do I look fat in this shirt?” or “Is she prettier than me?” Or if not, she can go all day convincing you that you are a goddamn goddess despite the fact that you can’t squeeze into your jeans.

You have a sister, best friend, mentor, lover, all in one, in her persona. You can laugh out loud even when your brains started to split up. You can share with her your dirty little secrets, even when you don’t intend to, normally she always finds out. You can shave each others armpits yet you still find her hot anyway. You can be happy, energetic, frantic, angry as hell, all at the same time and she thinks you’re still normal! Whenever you have a fight, expect an extremely crazy fight. You wanted to hurt her but she’s too delicate that you’d rather hurt yourself. Yeah, you love her that much. You’d throw things at her and push her outside of the door, and when she’s about to leave your house you’ll go running after her, and beg her to come back but still be mad because she’s got the guts to leave you at that state. But then again, she also loves you too much that she’ll be running back to you as well. Ang labo diba? But totally makes sense.

And don’t even get me started with sex. Guys are hot, they can satisfy women, I’d give them that. No arguments needed. But nobody knows it better how to touch women where they wanted to be touched than women themselves, right? No matter how normal the sex can be, gentle or rough sex, at any given time, midnight, afternoon delight, break of dawn, there will always be passion in there that men can’t deliver. There will always be a certain connection, indescribable satisfaction that you can’t even fathom.

But then again, these are just based on my observation and based on first-hand information from my dear lesbian friends. How am I suppose to know, I’ve never been with a girl. But one thing I do know, I just recently kissed a girl and I liked it

Cheers!

Xoxo
KC

A cynic in the making

“Don’t cry because it’s over; cry because you will never have sex with Mila Kunis/ Ryan Gosling.”

I saw this quote from another wordpress blogger and I really had a good laugh reading this post. So how did I end up being on that page? The truth is, I’m afraid I’m a cynic in the making and it’s quite alarming.

The other day I met up with a friend whom I haven’t seen in a while. We sipped coffee, had a few laughs, and catch up on the latest happenings in each other’s lives. And suddenly I was asked the most dumb question ever and at the same time, the hardest one to answer: Are you happy? For a moment I just stared at her and recollect my thoughts to figure out how to answer this stupid question. And after a while I managed to answer Yes and No. The thing is, there’s nothing wrong with my life as of the moment. In terms of career-life, I can say that I’m in a pretty neat place; I have a good job that supports my bills, needs and luho. I may work longer hours but I couldn’t manage to complain because I’m enjoying it. Just very recently, I was able to close a pretty huge deal and I’m pleased seeing how the fruits of my labor had turned out. Am I happy at that moment? Yes, I was happy and giddy actually. But when I got home, I only slept the whole afternoon. Yes, I just slept when I should be out with some friends, celebrating and drowning my ass off with booze and all that, but instead I just slept. I felt so tired and so uninspired…

I never realized that there’s something building up inside me until when I was driving that night to met up with some friends and on the way to their place, I was crying inside my car. Like, out of nowhere, all of a sudden, I felt the anxiety building up and the only way to get rid of it was to cry my eyes out. In a way, it felt good because I haven’t cried in a while. But you see, it’s freaky how all of a sudden these emotions swelled up. Then it hit me, I’m just a sad little person. Everything about my life has been routinely. I wake up every morning at 6:30 a.m. Get ready for work and grab some breakfast, I seldom drive nowadays because it’s starting to bore me out, driving. Like, I needed to see some new scenery and other people so I sometimes commute to work. From 10:00 a.m. to 7:00 p.m. I’m working. Most of the time I work until 8 or 9 p.m. Then if my schedule permits, I’d go jogging with my neighbors at U.P. grounds in Diliman. Then go home and do the same thing all over again the next day.

I don’t know how to have fun anymore. I don’t have the will to dress up nicely at work or wherever I’m going anymore. Tequila and vodka tastes weird in my buds nowadays and doesn’t seem exciting anymore. I don’t go out and drink my ass off in the bars and clubs anymore. I’m not even inspired to cook, to paint and to my horror, even to write in my blogsite. I refuse to entertain suitors because I always assume that things will eventually end up bad and that my thoughts are, to save us both the time and efforts then stop trying, as simple as that. I can’t even remember the feeling of having butterflies in my belly as I anticipate the first kiss. Big or little things don’t get to excite me anymore, even when I see the waitress carrying my ordered meal! Right? I can’t remember the last time that I ate with passion and really take pleasure in the meal that I’m taking. For pete’s sake, I eat in front of my desktop?! How sick is that?? I’m starting to became a cynical zombie who is so empty and lonely inside who has lost the will to be happy and uninspired that lives a boring, regular life. And I’m telling you it’s sad, it’s really sad…

I’m 25 years old and have the whole world beneath my feet yet how come I feel 20 years senior?? I feel like I’m a car in desperate need of a jump-start. Or a personal computer that needs to be shut down and reformat. I need someone or something or whatever there is that might inspire me and bring back the joy to my life! I’d take it, whatever it is, I’d take it. Give me joy, humor, excitement, fear or pain. I swear I’d take it. Just make me feel again..

“Remember, beneath every cynic there lies a romantic, and probably an injured one.”

Who says I’m black-thumbed?

First of, I apologize for the delay of this post. I’ve been extremely busy with work lately that I’m starting to regret about accepting my job! hahaha nah, just kidding. I just had a hard time balancing my work, jogging schedule and updating my blogsite so there, this post is almost a month delayed! So I truly apologize…

Second, I missed writing and I missed my readers!!! Hahaha now I realized how much I love writing about random things that with almost a month of being idle about it, it made me feel agitated! Whoa, I sounded like a drug-addict just a moment ago

So how have you been? I wanted to tell you so much about my holy week church activities but I haven’t compiled the photos yet, (talk about another delayed post hehe) so let’s start with what I did during Black Saturday

Lately I wanted to be surrounded by nature all the time. But living in a city where doing recreational activities in the park is very limited, (impossible even) it is quite hard to achieve. And sometimes I think, I maybe I’m getting old and that I’m starting to truly appreciate nature and the effects of it in my body and lifestyle. Plus I just wanted to improve the look of my house but in a very cost-efficient way. So I started browsing the net for DIY gardening activities that are easy to do and the next thing was, I’m picking up plants and flowers in the nearby landscaping store And here are the instagram photos of my newly improved plant box/garden in front of my house!

and then….. TTAADDDDAAAA!!!!!!!

Isn’t it pretty??? Yeah, I always get laughs from my friends and neighbors every time they see that “Hi there!” signage in my plant box. And that’s not the only signage I have, I also have this one:

Don’t get me wrong, I didn’t mean for that signage to be offensive. I just want my neighbors to be aware and start to take care of our nature. I couldn’t  join tree-planting activities because of my work (but boy, if I can!) so this is like, my simple way of showing mother nature my appreciation of her beauty and I want my neighbors to feel the same way

This smaller plant box is on the other side near the garage. I really like this small tree!

I got this inspiration from www.apartmenttherapy.com and since then, it has become of my favorite sites to visit

I even planted tomatoes! I’m quite excited about this plant because this is the first time that I’ll be growing them! Yey!  Hopefully everything will turn out well (fingers crossed!). After a month or so, I’ll post an update about the growth of my plants. Few days ago, I added crawling plants on the front plant box and now they’re starting to grow

Xoxo,

KC

Flying with Pen and WordPress

It’s been a year since I started writing and sharing the world my thoughts and experiences! It’s been real fun and quite an adventure! I haven’t really paid much attention to the quantity of readers that I might acquire with blogging but I’m glad that I have 47 followers throughout the year, and I know it’s not much to most of you who must have more than a thousand followers, but I truly treasure all of them and consider them my friends

Keeping a blog is kinda hard to maintain. If only I could sit all day and write and write but of course that’s impossible. There are times that I sleep for only two to three hours every night because there are lots of pending drafts to finish! But seeing my notification light up each time I finish a post makes me fired up and forget how mentally tired I am from writing! It just gives me a different kind of inspiration every time.

I’m not sure if I were able to update my site every now and then because of my schedule but I will surely try. And yeah, I’ll try to keep it more and more interesting

So, I just wanna say many THANKS for the support and love that you, my dear readers, have give me. You have no idea how much hope you have given this crazy girl with each and every advice and opinions you have shared with me. Thank you for the time you’ve spent in reading my posts, even though some of them might bore you out! hahaha and for that I’m sorry!

Thank you for giving me inspiration with your blogs as well. I can never get tired of browsing on your blogsites because they always puts a smile on my face and teaches me a new lesson. May you keep on inspiring people with your writing and style as much as you have inspired me.

And to the aspiring bloggers out there, all I can say is; Don’t think twice! If you wanted to write about anything under the sun, go on! Stop thinking about the wrong grammars or whatever bullshit there is, who cares??! Right?? What’s important is that you feel a certain kind of freedom every time you write your thoughts. So go on, grab a pen and paper and start jotting down

Cheers to another year!

Xxxoooxxxooo,

KC

My Pursuit of Silver Linings

“I was a slut. There will always be a part of me that is dirty and sloppy, but I like that, just like all the other parts of myself. I can forgive. Can you say the same for yourself, fucker? Can you forgive? Are you capable of that?” – Tiffany, Silver Linings Playbook

Those are my favorite lines by Jennifer Lawrence, my newest favorite actress who played the role of Tiffany from my newest favorite movie, Silver Linings Playbook. The movie was wickedly hilarious, soooo moving (sorry for the exaggeration) crazy as sick, and I love it!

Life doesn’t always go according to plan. Pat Solatano (Bradley Cooper) has lost everything — his house, his job, and his wife. He now finds himself living back with his mother (Jacki Weaver) and father (Robert DeNiro) after spending eight months is a state institution on a plea bargain. Pat is determined to rebuild his life, remain positive and reunite with his wife, despite the challenging circumstances of their separation. All Pat’s parents want is for him to get back on his feet-and to share their family’s obsession with the Philadelphia Eagles football team. When Pat meets Tiffany (Jennifer Lawrence), a mysterious girl with problems of her own, things get complicated. Tiffany offers to help Pat reconnect with his wife, but only if he’ll do something very important for her in return. As their deal plays out, an unexpected bond begins to form between them, and silver linings appear in both of their lives. — Synopsis from Rotten Tomatoes

In this kind of movies, the endings are kinda predictable; the guy will surely get the girl and they live happily ever after. But the fun part is witnessing how they’d end up together or hearing the words from the protagonist as he swept off the leading lady’s feet (Ugh, I’m such a hopeless romantic!) Sometimes I daydream that my life is a movie or like what the trend is nowadays, a reality show. But in my case, I don’t always get the guys…

(And so the crowd sympathetically goes AAAAAAAWWWWWW)

It’s like, cupid and fate joined forces to toy with me, you know? Forgive me for saying this out loud but “How come I don’t get the guys??” HAHAHAHA You remember my recent post Me and My Soft Heart?  The truth is, you know who got his new girlfriend pregnant. Uh-huh, he’s having a baby so surprise, surprise. And of all the people he’s seeking advice from is me. ME. The very person who least wants to give him my advice (oh life). The load is weighing him down (or so what he tells me during our last conversation). He felt like he’s not yet ready for such big responsibility and isn’t ready to give up his vices to embrace the role of fatherhood. Well, in my opinion, having a baby is a blessing and if you’re not yet ready to raise one of your own then you should have been more careful, right? Him being a parent soon is a bit shocking, but running to me is a different thing. Just when I thought he is asking for my ‘friendly’ advice, I put my guard down and decided to talk some sense into him. As I told you before, we were good friends back then and I wanted to help him out. But no, that’s not what he intends to do and honestly, I can’t help but wonder if he ever thought of me as his friend. I don’t know about you, but I consider friend as someone I don’t take for granted and someone I respect a lot. Unfortunately, he only sees me as an escape route from his burden. He sees me as someone independent and carefree and he always wanted that life for himself. Well, I welcomed him to my world before but he only shuts it out, so what does he expects me to do right? He should have figured out what he wants a few months back.

The bottom line is, he was a dick (Oh please, don’t give me that nasty look. I’m pissed and I don’t give a damn.) It’s just too much for me and I don’t wanted to be associated with assholes like him, ever again! I don’t want to be some guy’s “escape route.” Like when things are going pretty bad, they’d look for me as their “fire exit.” What the fuck right??!! Is this what I’m getting after being someone’s friend and pushing aside all the negative things that has happened before? You know what I truly wish for him? That being a dad will somehow give him a new perspective in life, and that if ever he’ll have a daughter, he’ll feel the remorse of how ill he has treated the girls he has dated before… Ugh.

Fast forward to the few months after that stupid drama, this guy from my post So Close came along… In a sense, we don’t really have an intimate relationship. It’s more like a special and complicated friendship, like you wanted to be something more than just friends but then a lot of complications are at hand so you just keep mum about it.  Everything was going pretty well, we keep in touch via viber, skype, facebook or any social networking sites that technology has ever invented. Then just after Christmas, he told me that he needed time for himself since he’ll going back to school to finish his course. So I try to play it cool you know, like “Sure, do your thing. Take care.” but the real deal was “What did I do? Did I say something wrong? Don’t you like me anymore? Oh no, oh no..” Yeah, us girls thinks about a lot of many things all at the same time. So I just go on with my everyday life trying not to think of him and about what happened because it’s not that big of a deal. Or maybe that’s what I keep on telling myself, but no, it really isn’t a big deal. I’m not in love with him but I like him and how he treats me and make me feel that I felt sad if I’d ever to lose a good friend. But things just aren’t what they’re supposed to be. And to my surprise, just very recently, he made contact with me and was apologizing for not responding to me for such a long time.

Ouch. Did I just got dumped?? 

I was mad at him, frustrated even but I also can’t deny that I was missing him in between (what the fuck is wrong with me??!). How can someone just leave without a word?! The least he could do was to give me a head’s up saying ‘hey bitch, I’ll be gone for a while. Talk to you soon.’ Nada. But I’d give him credit for standing up and apologizing still even after months of total silence. Cause for me, having the guts to ask for an apology is all that matters. I get it, the distance and time difference has been too much for him and that he’d rather live in a more realistic world than keep seeing a girl over the monitor who is over a thousand miles away. I understand that, besides I didn’t expected anything good that might happen with this long-distance-stupid-thing, I guess I just enjoyed his company (or so to speak) and how much we have a lot in common. I’m still grateful that he stated the facts that I can’t even face myself because of how much it will hurt, like this is going nowhere. Would I want to pursue whatever we had despite the distance? I guess I liked him that much that I was willing to, but then how was I suppose to pursue something real and important to me when right before it even started, this person has already given up on me? >sniff, sniff< And what makes it more sad is when I was reading his messages the song playing on the background was Get here by Oleta Adam. What a day.

So how come I don’t get the guy? By this time I know people are saying “Poor you, poor KC.” Dammit, I think I’m getting used to it. I know, I know, you’d tell me that I should stop looking for Mr. Right, that he’ll come along to find me. Or that I should just be patient and all. I know that. You’d tell me, there’s more to life than looking for a partner but you see, that’s total bullshit because I believe that all you really need is love. To tell you the truth, I’m not even looking. I don’t how and why but I think I have this magnetic field that attracts frogs instead of princes. I also want to think that someone is really out there for me, but I don’t want to dwell on that anymore. Looking back on the past relationships I’ve had, I felt like I was the one who has given so much that it makes me wonder, “How come I get nothing in return?” I’m sure you’d tell me love isn’t about asking in return, hence it’s all about giving. Well, I say fuck that.

Conceited as it may seem, but after all that I’ve been through, this time (if ever there will come a time) it’ll be all about me. Yes, the next guy should be able to fight for me despite the distance in between us. And next time, I won’t be just an escape route but he sees my worth and stick with me whether everything is on fire or when the sky won’t stop raining. And so I decided to make an experiment. To spare myself with all the stupid heartaches, I will not engage myself in all kinds of dating. I will not entertain men in my life except for plain friendship. I will not respond to flirty accommodations that may lead to flings, short or long-term relationship or sexual practices or whatsoever. In short, I’m on dating-celibacy until my 27th birthday. HAHAHAHA

Oh dear, what have I got myself into.. sigh.

Cheers!

Xoxo,

KC

Totally Misguided Ghost

The past few weeks have been quite light and heavy for me (all at once) in such a weird way. I couldn’t even spell out BUSY because I have been as busy as hell with juggling work, social life and doing errands that one word can’t justify the actual deed. I have a lot of songs on my playlist that I wanted to share with you guys but there’s just too much that I don’t know where to start!? And I missed bugging you, my readers, with my insane thoughts on my random personal things that makes you read my blog with interest or just because you’re bored hehe but whatever your reason is, I’m still glad you’re here.

So what’s been going on with me and my fake blonde hair?

Last January 22, our Executives from Italy pay a visit here in the country to discuss important business matters with us. They stayed here for a week and it was exhausting really, but fun at the same time. I was in charge of giving them a tour around the recent projects we’re working on and I learned a lot from them during our sales meeting. Even though I worked longer hours during their stay here, at least I get to share lunch and dinner with them in the most exquisite restaurants in the Metro! I wanted to take photos of the great food but I don’t want them to think that I’m such a weirdo who takes a shot of each and every meal we’re about to take! Hahaha Of course their stay here wouldn’t be complete without them trying the Filipino delicacies and desserts. Here is a photo of one our executives trying out our famous dessert Halo-Halo and I know for sure that he loved it!

And I’m happy to share with you that my boss has acknowledged all my efforts and commitment to the company that he promoted and gave me a raise! Yey!! Thanks boss! *Clap*clap* You know, I realized hard work really pays off. But then, this great opportunity also comes with great responsibility. (Hmm.. that saying sounds familiar?) Because now I can feel the pressure of doing excellent work ALWAYS to the point that I worked much longer hours even though it’s not necessary, I just want to make sure that everything is done accordingly. Tsk, I hate being workaholic! No, I take that back! hahaha

And as you know, I started doing interviews for my K-Chat Series. And over the past entries I had the greatest opportunity of interviewing Nesh Janiola (Dancer), Nemo Aguila (Artist), and my latest guest, Mr. Oly Ruiz (Wedding Photographer) and I still couldn’t get the hang of it! I haven’t figured out who will I feature for the month of March though.

Two weeks ago, one of my dear sisters left country for States and we had a small despedida gathering for her. I miss her already especially how we share great laughs and secrets together. If I were to be asked, of course I wouldn’t want her to leave but I can’t be selfish for her, since I know how much she wanted to go there and start her career for good.. See you after five years, sissy!

My pretty sister, Agnes during her despedida party at A.Venue, Makati City. This photo was taken before we get emotional

I was reunited with one of my great friends from High School, Maxine! She’s as pretty and always and she’s currently doing her Master’s degree course in Psychology at the University of the Philippines, yeah she’s damn smart Before doing her Master’s degree, she has recently worked for one of the leading television network in the country and I must say, that I enjoyed the first-hand celebrity gossips from her! hihihi This weekend we’re planning to have a get-together with our other batch mates since we’ll be celebrating our Alumni Homecoming next year! Whew, I can’t believe it’s been 10 years already!

Maxine and I doing second-hand book-shopping in Bookay-Ukay Bookstore along Maharlika Street, Quezon City. These are the books we found that best describes our current ‘love’ situation hahaha

And speaking of books, I’ve been reading 1Q48 by Haruki Murakami for quite a while now but I couldn’t find the will to finish it! I dunno, it has a great story and I couldn’t wait to find out how the story would end but I’m sooo sorry to say this (I hope I don’t offend Murakami fans) but with too much writing details, the story grows boring and slow pacing.

To the point that I have finished my light-reading-book first (yeah, I read multiple books all at the same time! How crazy is that?!) by Jackie Collins, entitled Married Lovers. I got this book from a thrift store in Cubao Expo for only 60 pesos, isn’t it cool! And now I’ve started reading a new one entitled The Memory-Keeper’s Daughter by Kim Edwards. Have you read the novel? I’m excited to explore the story ’cause it seems interesting. See?? I don’t know what’s with 1Q84 that I couldn’t finish it! Argh

And so came the season wherein most people (who have significant someone) become cheesy more than the usual and the atmosphere around is extra uhm.. romantic. Yes, it’s Valentine’s Day. I don’t particularly enjoy this season not because I’m bitter (oh please) or anything, but because I HATE when people keep on bugging me about how I’m going to spend my Valentine’s Day or who my date is. Ugh! So for the whole day, I was literally avoiding social networks and crowded places! hahaha How silly of me Okay, maybe I felt a little envious about the ladies who were able to receive wonderful and romantic gifts from their lovers, just a little! I didn’t feel all that bad about the fact that I don’t have ‘special’ someone to celebrate this day with, because my friends kidnapped me to have dinner with them

Admiring my mistletoe on the Heart’s Day.

Marge, Oma, Gresh and I celebrated Valentine’s Day at Cafe Juanita, Kapitolyo

The ambiance and the food here are superb!

And thanks to my friends (and not so close friends) for wishing me a Happy Valentine’s Day through text, facebook, instagram and here on wordpress. And just when I thought that the day was over, my little brother (well, figuratively speaking since he’s taller than me!) surprised me with a single rose in my bed! Isn’t he the sweetest? Just so you know, I’m a hearts-and-roses kinda girl who loooves surprises so I was really touched with what my brother did for me. I know he don’t usually do this kind of cheesy stuff (not even for his past girlfriends, I think) and it made me feel extra special!

The following day, I had post-Valentine’s dinner celebration with my good friend Jem, my brother Kelvin, and Fr. James at Bellini’s Italian Restaurant located at Marikina Shoe Expo, Cubao City (most commonly known as Cubao Xpo). If you’re looking for an authentic Italian cuisine in the Metro, then Bellini’s is one of the best places to be. The owner is an Italian Chef, who’s been living here in the country for quite some time yet he can’t speak Tagalog language fluently. Non parla inglese! Weird. But he’s really friendly and accommodating, who consistently checks up on every table asking his clients if they were enjoying their meal. Now that’s what I call great customer service

I got overly excited for this date that I curled my hair Hello Goldilocks!

My post-Valentine’s date

Two of my favorite guys in the world, my brother Kelvin and Fr. James Nitollama.

My friend Jem and me, enjoying our meal and great setting of the restaurant.

Their specialty for the night, pasta platter in four different flavors.

The best thing about Italian pizza, is the crust! Yum! Weird-looking veggie and fish appetizer but the way this looks doesn’t justify how good it tastes! My brother who’s not a fan of vegetable, couldn’t stop eating this dish

Me and my sissy. She’s also single and so is my friend Maxine. Hey, why are the beautiful ladies ‘loveless’ during Heart’s Day? It’s unfair! lol

Even my handsome brother is unattached! Haha

Me and my sweet brother. This photo was taken on February 15, and over the weekend we got into a sibling fight so we weren’t speaking until last night. I guess I can never be mad at him for too long. (Sigh)

Hey look! It’s the leaning tower of Pisa!

After our hearty dinner at Bellini’s, another Valentine’s gift greeted me when I got home. My 4-year old cat named Pot-pot gave birth to three healthy kittens! I was shocked because she gave birth all by herself! I guess she couldn’t wait for me to get home so I can take her to the vet or I can be her midwife (hahaha) so she did all by herself. Oh well, she’s not as delicate as I presume her to be And I’m still glad that she’s perfectly fine as well as her kittens

This photo was taken the morning before she gave birth. I don’t know how but I kinda had the feeling that today was the day.

The newest members of our Animalandia family! I still don’t have names for them yet because I couldn’t figure out the sex of each kitten, they are still too small!

Whheee!!! Aren’t they adorable!

And lastly, I had an asthma attack again last Sunday because of too much work and the on-going construction of our showroom isn’t helping a lot and so yesterday I took the day off. But I couldn’t just stay in the house and do nothing so I registered our car in the nearest LTO (Land Transportation Office) since my sister has been bugging me about it since the start of February! So there, my sister is pretty pleased hehe

So that’s pretty much what kept my wandering soul occupied for the past few days. Thanks for reading all the way through!

P.S.: If you noticed, most of my post has food on it so don’t be surprised that for my next few posts, it will be about my diet and work-out regime because I gained like 10 pounds since the holidays! Argh!

See you around!

Cheers!

Xoxo,

KC

Oly Ruiz: Metro’s Best in Capturing ‘I Do’s’

“If you wanna do something, you have to do it with everything that you have, never do something half-heartedly. Focus on the people who support you and believe in yourself and don’t be bothered by the people who tell otherwise. Love it and commit to it and in the end, you’ll have no regrets but a feeling of great fulfillment. ” – Oly Ruiz

I almost forgot how it feels like to be a teenager once more and get kilig whenever I see my crush walking down the hallway. I felt that same kilig when Sir Oly agreed to have an interview for my February Issue of K-Chat Series. (I literally bugged him to get an exclusive such as this!) I couldn’t think of a better guest to invite and grace my February issue than Mr. Oly Ruiz, the Chief Executive Artist of MetroPhoto. He is the MetroMan who brought a new face and luxurious style to modern wedding photography. And I had the privilege (Oh god, oh god, oh god!) to get to know more about the Metro’s sought-after wedding photographer of this generation.

Just like any other girls all over the world, I daydream about wedding and pre-nup pictorials of my own, and that someday I’ll have great captured moments to remember them by. My cousin just recently got married and one of the things I learned from them, is that you should invest in good photographer and videographer. Yes, they may be a bit costly but they also serve as a good investment because these captured photos are your lifetime memories. Besides, you only get married once (uh, for me and for some people I guess) so make everything worth it and totally treasured.

Photo courtesy of MetroPhoto : Andrea and Mike Wedding in Sanctuario De San Antonio.

There are only few who made a name of their own in wedding industry here in the country. They are the best of the best and only a niche market can afford them. One of which is Oly Ruiz of Metrophoto. And it just so happened that Sir Oly and I have a few mutual friends He has done the pre-nup shoot of my lovely neighbor and church-mate which was held in Singapore, and such a coincidence that he’s also from my hometown! What are the odds right? I finally got to meet him in person and see him in action during a scheduled pre-nup shoot in our showroom for my boss’ soon-to-be-married friends. I didn’t wasted any more minute and introduced myself, we even have a photo posted on my instagram account! Yeah, I’m a fangirl hehe Well, who wouldn’t? He is known for capturing romantic moments of wedding, engagement, and family portraits in the most stylish, creative and out of the norm way possible. Every snapshot is just breathtaking.

Photo courtesy of MetroPhoto : Dimitra and Nicos Trash the Dress pictorial in Santorini, Greece.

Oly Ruiz is an engineering graduate and was then determined to pursue this profession, but fate seems to be full of jest as it soon lead him to a different career path, wedding photography. He was fascinated with the still-life photographs taken by his college bud, and he was immediately drawn into this hobby and sooner became his passion. “His work is just amazing and I was obsessed to be just as good. I didn’t have the professional background then, but I was determined so I started joining different forums and workshops.”

Photo courtesy of MetroPhoto : Rachel and Rolly Trash the Dress pictorial in Singapore.

Photo courtesy of MetroPhoto : Ollie and Cristina Wedding in Cabo San Juan, Mexico.

With little knowledge about photography and encouragement from his supporters, his hobby of just “aim-and-shoot” transformed into a full-pledged wedding photographer. “For me there is a natural progression to photography. Initially, one would shoot still-life, then landscapes then on to more complicated fields. But at whichever stage I was, I wanted to do something more, I wanted to capture something much complicated, something that I’ve never seen before.” So when Oly joined a workshop headed by The Dino Lara himself, one of the best and pioneer wedding photographers in the country, he got inspired to pursue wedding photography. And slowly but surely, he progressed in this craft and put up his own photography firm now called Metrophoto.

Photo courtesy of MetroPhoto : Mark and Marilyn Pre-Nup shoot in Coron, Palawan

For five short years since Metrophoto was established, the firm has been well-known and became incredibly viral not just in the wedding industry, but in social networks as well. Oly became known as the MetroMan and along with his talented crew, they’ve been traveling worldwide to capture his wedding subjects and the beautiful architecture around the world at their best. “Destination shoots are very unique and unforgettable yet very demanding in terms of time. If a certain place means something to our couple and that’s where they want to have their shoot, then we make sure that it’s going to be worth all the time and money to go there.” Oly shares. And this style clearly separates him with a lot from other photographers in town including doing what they call Trash the Dress, where the bride “trashes” her dress in a photoshoot after her wedding. Well, it makes sense since you only wear it once right? So why not make a creative pictorial out of it?

Photo courtesy of MetroPhoto : Kai and Grace Wedding in Shangri-La Boracay.

“One wedding is not just a snapshot; It’s the premium service that MetroPhoto can offer. That’s the promise of the brand.” – Oly Ruiz

MetroPhoto is widely known for its creative shots that somehow manages to defy gravity. Even capturing moments underwater seems to be easy! One of the breathtaking sessions was the underwater shoot in Batangas and talk about mind-blowing, the controversial pictorial that MetroPhoto ever created is the lesbian engagement of Vida and Arra.

Photo courtesy of MetroPhoto : Hot, hot, hot engagement pictorial of Arra and Vida.

Photo courtesy of MetroPhoto : The Underwater Engagement pictorial of Chasz and Charles.

Oly admits that’s he’s a control-freak and perfectionist, it’s not all that bad really. He always makes it certain that his clients experience the best service his team can offer. So when it comes to giving service to his clients, the team by all means, makes sure that everything is done as perfect as possible. Oly says, “They pay premium for me, so they should get nothing but the best service from me and the company. That’s why I’m very hands-on with each and every shoot; each and every detail, from capturing to editing, the write ups, from the moment you interact with us, up to the moment we deliver your albums, all of this has to be an entirely perfect MetroPhoto experience.”

Photo courtesy of MetroPhoto : PBA Star Player Arwind Santon and his bride Ivette Gavieres say ‘I Do’ in Tagaytay City

From the country’s socialites to celebrities, and even couples around the world, MetroPhoto is in their top picks in documenting their precious weddings. It’s no brainer that sooner or later, Hollywood celebs will soon be lining up to set an appointment with Oly. Hmm.. Brad and Angelina maybe? haha Now that’s promising!

Photo courtesy of MetroPhoto : Actress LJ Moreno (Ricafort) and PBA All -Star point guard Jimmy Alapag wedding in Laguna Beach, California.

Aside from his pure talents and keen eye for details, Oly’s dedication in giving great service is one of the characteristics anyone will admire. “If you wanna be successful in this kind of industry, it’s not just about taking great pictures. It’s actually just a small part of it. Giving utmost satisfaction to your clients is the key to everything.” Oly shares the main ingredient in MetroPhoto’s success. Oly also hires the best people who can deliver and match not just his expectations but the client’s as well. “Our clients always demand the best from us, so that’s the same thing we demand within ourselves (the group). If the passion to serve is not there, you won’t be able to take the pressure being a part of MetroPhoto. This is a hardcore business.” Oly explains in a confident stature.

Photo courtesy of MetroPhoto : Actor/TV Host John Estrada and Priscilla Meirelles wedding in Thunderbird Resort.

Photo courtesy of MetroPhoto : PBA Star Cager LA Tenorio tied the knot with his college sweetheart Chesca Bugia.

As much as I wanna put more photos in my post, it’s obvious that my page isn’t enough. So for more beeaauutiful photos by Oly Ruiz, check out his webpage at this link

http://www.mymetrophoto.com/

Cheers!

Xoxo,

KC

Will you be my Cherry?

Happy Valentine’s Day Everyone!

Cheers!

Even for the sad and lonely people

Xoxo,

KC

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